i just realized that i dont really like being alone too much. i start thinking too much, i get too worked up about small things that could be solved, together-gether, with other people.
i like thinking, but not this type of 'thinking-too-much'. not for me :(

that i love you? no. anyway, things have been happening lately, things so significant, so important, so interesting and ultimately, so obviously a blessing from god that these things just have to be blogged about, ahaha.

so i guess i'll arrange them in numbers. easier for y'all to read. so here it is:

1. mid-year exam! hmm, significant? yes, this one particularly. why? cos for the first time, *drumroll*, one of 4sc1's top students actually really didnt study for it! like seriously, and im not joking here. i got number 36 (its partly bcos i didnt sit for sum of the papers) i got too caught up in forum and pidato before that until i neglected my preparations for exam. yes, yes, its my fault and yes, it was hard and stressful but sumhow less stressful than having to face competitions. at times i had to go through what estella, my classmate, would call "the night before", meaning running through the subject only the night before. and to add to that stress of having to sit for a paper almost unprepared for, the kids from st3 primary was singing 'one moment in time" and some sudirman song for almost everyday of the exam AND they never got tired of it. so what exactly did i get out from this? i learned how important paying attention in class really is. see, i even colored that part red to prove it cos really, i would have done so much better if i really paid attention in class. i even made this small list of what to do after exam and i pinned it on my (or rather my sister's since  im using her side of the room now) board. it goes sumtin like:
                                  
                              I wished I:
                                        1. paid real attention in class
                                        2. finished all the work given by teacher
                                        3. did revision after learning a certain topic
                                    ( lets do this next time)

it sounds um.. cliche? right word ka? yea, i noe, everyone says that and its true and i only realize how true it is after going through this exam. maybe all of those people, teachers and others, who give this advice sincerely have actually gone through the same thing, meaning that they flunked an exam before or sumtin (hehehe, now we know...)

2. debate. yes i know we didnt do so well and actually i was struggling all that time with self-confidence. my team members maybe didnt notice it but i think they did, that i felt intimidated at times. most of those in the debate team were form 3s but then again, working with them was really great. it taught me alot. i learned to voice out my thoughts more, to look bravely in fear's eye and destroy my fears and much more. i realised that i was lacking in many areas and here i see why God puts us through this kinds of things, exposing us to these kinds of situations so that we realise that there is still so much more room to grow, so much more to learn, so we'll be ever humble and ready to accept and learn and grow and finally become who we are called to be, amen? and i miss the times when we would joke about, when alicia, abigail and lip yi would start acting out a scene from my fair lady, spamalot (funny version of camelot) and sum other musicals. and thru this i also began to appreciate my teachers more, especially mdm. chan who so sweetly sms-ed an encouraging but rather weird sms after our defeat, hahax

3. robotics baby!!! my team won third place and the other team won 4th. isnt that grrrreat??!! ahahahax. we seriously arent that good but then, other schools arent as good! st3 rawks! wahahaha!!! and here again, i wanna say that i jus love my robotics team!! my team members are lynne lo and clarissa kuek, bestfriends, ever determined, energetic, fast-thinking and above all, funny! yea they are bestfriends but i've been working with them since form 2 so im quite used to them and they never actually make me feel left out and its quite enjoyable working with them. the medal we won was sooo kewl! why? cos its actually heavy, yeap HEAVY! lolz, i was like "wah so heavy! so kewl!" in front if the VIP and i was laughing away on stage because of it. and the certs for robotics competitions are COLOURFUL!! yay for robotics!

4. i got chosen as safety and surveillance head unit! yeaaa!! sounds cool eh? catherine got head girl! unexpected to some but when i look back, i think she deserves it. she obviously works hard as a prefect. i cant say much on this for now cos it jus it just started, we jus got elected last friday. official election would be after the holidays. i think it would be great working together. of course got challenges la like the girls bitching about prefects, events to be organized but with the grace of god, im sure it'll be great.


guess thats all. and before i go... HAPPY GAWAI TO ALL!!

 dan dengan bangganya, this pure-bidayuh-but-not-so-fluent-in-her-mother-tongue wishes you

i bet multiply misses me, ahaha. lately i've been caught up in facebook everytime i go online. its not reli that addictive but its time consuming cos there's so many things to check on, tests and quizzes to take (as if it's a must, but the "how well do you know me?" quizzes are so interesting wad. ok then maybe facebook is addicting) and also new pics from frens to view (ok, another ting that isnt such a must. hm.. facebook is dangerous. highly addictive)

anyway, things have been happening recently. 'things' happen everyday but in this period of time, they're all the special kind of 'things' like competitions and such. mostly competitions la. that i'm-oh-so-busy-and-i-feel-i-can-die feeling that usually comes when you're in the upper forms finally caught up with me.

i jus took part in the Forum Remaja and pidato competition a few days ago. for the forum competition, my team, we had to skip class like for about a week to prctis together. the challenge of forum for me was:

1. speaking in BM (its not my main language but thank god! after a while, i got used to it, abit.. buts its fun speaking in BM, and there's lots of benefits to it)
2. speaking in a 'santai' manner meaning a relaxed, discussion-like manner, not an energetic, pomp and power manner which im used to everytime i get on stage to speak something.
3. answering spontaneously in BM. there's a part in forum that requires us to answer a question on the spot. but it wasnt so bad in the end aft much prctis. the spontaneous part in pidato was harder, i had to talk for about 4 minutes, i totally ruined that!

and bcos of the practices we had, i kinda missed (as in rindu, rindu sangat sangat!) class, i kinda missed listening to teacher and i kinda missed doing classwork and home work. oh, and btw, we're having exams now so bcos of this i havent reli studied and i also missed 2 days of exam cos of the pidato competition. now i kinda regret that i never reli paid attention to teacher during our classes.

after all this, yes, i have felt stressed at times but i learned alot from it. thank god, thank god alot that my forum team was the best i could have. they're the best! all fun and energetic people. there was this conversation we had (btw, my teammates are syafiqa amira, syafiqa ain, rabiaal and arlyenna. i was the only non-muslim there but i never reli felt out of place):

syafiqa ain: esok kan, kita buat sigik 'list' ngan nama sidak yang jadi persaingan hebat. ok?
me: *smiles naughtily* eh, kamek tiba-tiba jak ada idea. kalau kamek kan, kamek but 2 'list',   sigik ngan nama persaingan hebat, sigik gik ngan...
syafiqa and rabiaal: nama laki hensem!

lolz!! we had soo much fun together and we also ate soo much guava sweets together. hehe, guava sweets, tak berkaitan langsung. guava sweets are the best! you should try them. and at the end of the day, we won 2nd place!! st. tom won 1st place but next year, if we get a chance to compete again, thomians better watch out!!

from pidato pulak, i learned not to get distracted while the competition is still on. there was a long break in between the first pidato (the one where we presented the memorised pidato scripts) and the second one, the spontaneous one. i kinda got distracted, my mind wasnt so focused that when i presented the spontaneous one, i was sooo.... ohhh, so damn teruk! i could see the Openg boys( the compertition was at smk tun abang haji openg. very very beautiful school, seriously) laughing at me. but then again, they laughed at everyone who did badly in it. but anyways, i learned my lesson of keeping focused throughout a competition.

now comes the next challenge, exam!! hmm, im actually procrastinating now. better go off study soon. but before i go, i must say this:


    

i'm not much of blogger but wow! i finally passed the 100th blog! my last post was the cat music vid... so anwyay, i think in this post i'll say all that's been happening lately:

1. i'm finally part of facebook but still am lost in it...
2. i'm finally sick!! not happy tho... u see, throughout the whole of last week, i was surrounded  by friends who were sniffing and coughing away, but i didnt fall sick. but that day when i picked up my sis from airport, my throat started acting up and now... im sick. KL virus is stronger than kuching virus, maybe.
3. i'm part of 4 science 1, where everyone, after 3 years with each other, is finally becoming like family. but this 'family' has the junior science lab as their class, and this 'class' has two big, huge pillars in it, blocking the view of those sitting behind (me included, argh!!)
4. I'm vying for a big post in the school magazine comittee, almost gave the opportunity away until my dad gave me a half-hour lecture about how important it is. was given sum advice by my sis too. it makes me realize that often, the best advice you could get is from your own family.
5. i now have my aunt and my cousin staying here with us. so now i'm like an older sister to my cousin (wahaha!! its so fun having sumwan to bully in the house. finally!! after all those years of being the youngest in the house)
6. i'm thinking of taking sum xtra subjects for spm
7. i'm... i'm kinda out of things to say. guess that's all. i'm actually thinking of opening up a blog in blogger, but i was wondering if there's any easy way to import my blogs from multiply automatically to blogger... anyone?  

yesterday the Methodist churches had their christmas parade. they invited st. joseph's parish also so the empowered ministry join sekali. I was one of the flag bearers and i tell you, i have never seen a parade faster than that one. we even started running at one point. I got kinda out of breath from walking and singing and flag waving (so unfit... malunye). but then again, it was kinda fun saying merry christmas to the people on the streets, even those who don't actually reply, sebagai contoh, the policemen (we tried so hard to make them smile). whenever someone smiles and waves back i feel soo the happy until i almost say thank you back, lolz.

anyway, about LOLZ... after the parade (it finished around 8-9pm) alot of us were kinda tired. oliver and i were rolling up the flags then we started making lame jokes. i think it went like this...

someone: can you please roll up the wire?
oliver: hahax, lol up the wire... ok... *laughs out loud*

and after that we LOLed up the flags too, talked about rock 'n lol, hahax, lame yea... i know. but funny. then there was another joke about dry telephones but you have to wait until we ask you about that to find out more about it.

not reli warmed up yet... (read my last post) next one!
 

wad's the date today? 21st december... how many days to school? not many!! omg, i'm finally gonna be form 4. if only cikgu justin (josephian teacher, one of my favourite 'uncles' in the staffroom) was still here then i could go up to him and say "see? i'm finally FINALLY form 4". lolz... cos the teachers at st.jo are always like, "when are you gonna masuk morning session? when are you gonna masuk form 5??" hahax. well, st.3 wont be the only school i'll be missing once i leave form 5. but omigosh, what for look so far? i'm not even in form 4 yet, and the thought of form 4 freaks me out, thanx to my seniors... they were all like, "omg!! form 4 is sooo hard!!". but then again, its the hardest moments that teach you the most right? and i'm trying to get that "form 4 is so hard" thought out of my head... i wanna enjoy form 4!! gonna miss being in form 3 so much tho, cos form 3 is like between being a senior and a junior in school, you have juniors to bully and at the same time, you dont have that many responsibilities cos you're not a senior yet, well, for me la.

actually i'm typing out my thoughts right now not only to entertain you (lolz) but to warm up myself before i start my essay. i have the materials for it already but im kinda lazy to go through it and start typing it. it's something about young people (interesting? i think it is). ok... so... warm up warm uppppp... not warm yet... guess there'll be more posts coming up soon then...   

going off to KL today but i dont seem so excited. mebbe cos i dont feel like shopping, just like that day at spring... MNG finally had other colours to their clothes on sale other than just black and white and sum eww eww purple colour (they must have given it a nice name though... vintage purple... mebbe). the christmas decorations were up too. i was more interested in the deco than in the things on sale... hmm... nvm. i havent packed my stuff yet but thanks to the many trips i've had so far (band camp, damai trip, ce08) i dont thik i'll take that long to pack. i might even have time to blog bout my kittens before i go, heheh!

Durian season is here!! yesterday my mum bought about 15 durians, some to eat and some to be made into tempoyak (u noe what that is? Yes? gud! no? too bad). and yesterday was the first time i opened a durian on my own! yeahhh!! when i was eating the durian, my cat, short-tail (sounds like red indian pulak), came up to me asking for food. i was like, "cats dont eat durian!! go away!". but he soo degil, he even tried to jump for the durian flesh. then later when my mum was opening another durian, she finally gave one part of the flesh to short-tail. he licked it... after a while, only the seed was left. he likes durian!! wahahahax!!

here are a few pics of short-tail and his beloved durian


 

today is all soul's day so as usual my parents and I wud balik kampung to visit our relatives' graveyards. today we also went to a funeral mass for a relative at kampung jenan.
 
while we were still having mass the clouds finally "released big water" (really finally, at first the clouds as if shy shy to buang air), very heavy rain so had to stay in the church. i was sneezing away so i slept first. i woke up again when they started to pray the rosary, in bidayuh. i already knew some words of the prayers in bidayuh but i never knew the whole prayer so each time i said the prayers, it would be ala-dayung-bidayuh-bandar (bidayuh town girl), half english half bidayuh.

But thank God!! the sound system in the church was great so i could roughly hear every word so i tried to follow. i also ikut-ikut my mum who sat besides me, she prays very loudly, she's not the type to shy-shy when praying. so Thank God!! by the end of the rosary, i could say hail mary and glory be in bidayuh! sort of la, got small (small!!!) mistakes here n der. but i couldnt reli get the lord's prayer cos it was abit too long. but i feel happy enough!! plus, you tend to pay more attention to the words and its meanings when you pray in another language. hehe, very happy today. 

i wish, i wish, i hope, i hope, i can ever meet that greenroad band member whom i jumped over that day. i wanted to get to natalie who was crying to comfort her that i jumped over a band member who was lying down on the floor. and now, after so long, i still feel bad for doing that. especially jus now when my bro asked me to move (i was lying on the floor) cos he wouldnt step over me. "not respectful", he said. arghhhh... sorry GR band member, who ever you are.

here's a post i found online. there's many study tips and stuff online so spend time goin there, its like killing two birds wif a stone, relaxin and getting good info at the same time.


Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM), Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM) and Malaysian University English Test (MUET) examinations are just around the corner. Have you prepared yourselves mentally and physically for them? I hope that your answer is a confident yes. This post is not another post on SPM or STPM 2006 tips but serves as a gentle reminder on things you should have done before stepping into the examination hall and during the examination weeks.

First and foremost, you should have revised all the topics covered in your syllabus by now. You will never score well in your examination if you do not read the reference books. I know there are quite a lot of topics in the syllabus to be examined but you should have mastered most if not all topics during your form 4 and 5 for SPM or lower and upper sixth forms for STPM. So, it should not be any problem for you to revise all the topics at least twice or thrice before sitting for the actual examination.

Besides that, go to your school on time. If you are late, you will definitely mess up on your answers. If you drive, drive carefully to your school to avoid any possible road accident. Some candidates choose to return home immediately after the papers in the morning to take a lunch and maybe a refreshing shower at home before going back to the examination hall for the following papers in the afternoon. There are also some candidates choosing to take their lunch at school and do some final revision in the school library. Personally, I would advise you to return to your home to take a shower if your house is not too far from your schools.

Before stepping into the examination hall, make sure you have brought the examination slip, identity card (IC), scientific calculator and essential stationery. If possible, bring two scientific calculators (borrow it from your brother or sister) instead of one because your calculator might run out of electricity during the test. I am not joking or trying to be funny in advising you to bring a spare calculator. Last year, one of the candidates in my school broke his calculator accidentally and luckily he managed to borrow a calculator from his friend.

During the examination, you should utilize the time allocated for each paper. There are many candidates who love to sleep or pass up their answer sheets just after they have finished answering the questions especially the multiple choice questions. I do advise you to redo all the objective questions if you are able to finish answering them early. For subjective questions, you should check for spelling errors. Proofread your essays and make sure that your essays do not contain any first draft slips, spelling and grammatical errors.

In addition, I would advise you not to discuss the questions immediately after you have submitted the papers. It is because you might lose your confidence once you have found out that some of your answers are wrong. Indirectly, this will affect your confidence in answering the following papers. Why busily comparing your answers with your friends’ ones while you can save the time to read through your notes for final preparation before the next paper begins?

Last but not least, sleep well and eat healthily. You have prepared yourselves about two years for the examination and you definitely want to answer the questions at your best performance. As we know, lack of sleep or tired minds will certainly decrease your performance. Keep in mind that most of us will sit for SPM and STPM examination only once in a lifetime, so enjoy the experience!

heyz!!! i miss my blogg!!! havent been blogging in ages!!! btw, today i wanna share bout what happened to me on sports day and how it actually changed me. and this shud be very very lapuk cos sports day was ages ago but still, the lesson i got from it stays on. what made me put this up is cyril's sharing last friday during youth gathering, about the challenges he went through in preparing and competing in the iron man triathlon and one of them was his mental barrier.

so anyway, did you know what happened to me on sports day? sooooo memalukan to say this but yea, i was new, i don't really join sports events so i actually went running without my shoes thinking that i would be able to run faster (ok, don't start telling me it was the wrong thing to do, i know that now, really). sooo, deng deng deng deng..... my skin peeled off, ewww!!! disgusting!!! and for the first time, i actually had a teruk injury (not reli teruk la, but then again i was quite sakai cos i'm not reli accident prone). i was kinda amused by the fact that my feet were shaking and stuff but when the doctor was cleaning the injury, man did that hurt, but by then my feet were a lil' numb from pain so it wasnt so bad. i didnt even look at my injury, it was only the next day that i dared to look at it and ewwww!!! it was all watery and red but i kinda regret that i neva took a day-to-day picture of it, it would have been good for my mum's science classes.

Anyway, behind all that, did you know that it actually taught me sumting really good? it was only on that day that i finally got over my mental barrier, in which i doubted whether or not i could reach the end line (just 400m man! but then i was reli not the sports type maa). it was the injury that made me totally forget about that mental barrier. i stopped worrying about how long more it would take to reach the end line and focused more on my injury. i actually stopped half-way cos i toes were painful and wet (blood or water? i didnt know then). when i finished the race i was like, hah? finish already? okayyy....

after that day, i spent about a week walking around school (slowly and carefully) in slippers. it was funny but it taught me to appreciate my ability to walk. i only started jogging and running two months after sports day (the injury healed long before, i was just too lazy to exercise). and when i did, i realized a big difference in me. i could just go on jogging and jogging without focusing and worrying about when i would reach the end line. i finally started enjoying my exercise. i got over my mental barrier! now i understand what nike means by 'just do it'.

you won't know what's gonna happen, you won't know what you have in you, until you just do it. yeahhh... 

hehe, i almost became half deaf today... i was sick for the last few days (still am actually), the usual (but sumhow unusual) running nose, watery eyes, occasional cough. but this mornin i had my new south wales maths quiz and it got soo teruk (why then??!). my nose got really runny and i had lyk no tissue (figure out the disgusting details urself), and my eyes were so watery its was as if the quiz was so hard that i totally gave up and started crying (aduhh kesian). actually it was hard but i didnt really care, and i actually didnt even finish it. blame the sickness!!! and bcos i was sitting in the bilik jahitan which was air-conditioned and dry, my throat got kinda dry i guess cos i started coughing uncontrollably. i had to run to the toilet half-way thru, cough out my lungs (haha, of cos not, jus that i seldom cough that much) and ended up wasting the few precious minutes that i could have used to finish up the quiz, well, at least most of it. sounds bad right? but i was kinda ok after that, i guess it was just the air-con that made it worse. i was debating whether or not to come to school tomorrow but now i think i can la, asalkan i sleep early, which means i better keep this post short, hehe, cos its almost 10pm.

btw, because of all the nose-blowing i've been doing, i think my ears kinda suffered a little. you know, the ear drum-air pressure stuff. just now after the PBK exam (PBK exam and maths quiz in one day! but the PBK exam was much much better than the quiz), i realized that when i talked, my voice sounded so far away. my ears didnt feel blocked of anything, they just felt fine. mebbe the ear drums got strained abit, so now I'm temporarily (i hope) half-deaf. its amusing actually, especially the way i suddenly start talking louder than usual because i cant really hear myself. but now, after a while, it seems ok. i was hoping that it would last longer cause, yea, it was kinda interesting. but im thankful that it was jus temporary

okay, i gtg. need to sleep early, lest i suffer once again from the pains of watery eyes and runny nose! (drama queen...) k, bye!!!

*first post in a long long time!!